Its Been 28 Years Today

To My Wonderful Much Loved Mum

1934 - 1981

Taken Too Soon.

Your Life Was Just A Short Space In Time,

But Yours Was Touched With Gold.

Loving You,

Missing You,

Remembering You,

Forever And Always In My Heart.

From Your Youngest Daughter,

Kay

xxxx

Gippsland Ulcers - Good News!!!!

What a week it's been!!
I've have had to visit my Doctor everyday to have the injections, and last Thursday my Doctor sent me to a nearby hospital emergency department to see a hand specialist, because the ulcers were getting worse.
After a very Long..... wait and then being very quickly looked at by a very rude and arrogant Doctor, I was sent home!!!!
This very long and tedious story is too full of irrelevant mumblings, so I'll try and keep it short.....
The weekend was very quite, and my ulcers were finally clearing up and not hurting anymore!!!! Yippee!!!!
I saw my Doctor again yesterday, and she is very pleased with how their healing up, and also very surprised how quickly too. She said that my ulcers were caused by a Possum bite, which infected my mosquito bites, so I have been given the "All Clear"..... Yippee!!!!!!
My children are now home with me, making us all very happy to finally be together again, and so life continues on the usual path, now all the drama's of the last couple of weeks is over!!!!
I would like to sincerely thank all of you who sent me your lovely thoughts, well wishes and prayers xxxx

Bairnsdale Ulcers - Its Not Good News

My results have come back and there is the "Bad News" and the "Really Bad News"......
After seeing my Doctor this afternoon, my results confirmed that I have "Bairnsdale Ulcers"(That's the Bad News) and because they are growing quite rapidly, the "LAB" is now looking to see if I have "leprosy"(And that's the really bad news!!!!).....................
Aaaarrrrgggghhhh.......................................................................
I am now on two even stronger antibiotics, as well as having to go and see my doctor everyday for injections.....aarrrrggghhhh.....OUCH !!!!!!
I have been told that while the "LAB" is testing me for Leprosy I have to be quarantined at home. The only places I'm allowed to go to is the Doctor and the Chemist!!!! When I came out of the Doctors office, I was told to stand near the door of the doctors office, and the receptionist (with a mask over her face) then evacuated the patients from the waiting room to the car park, until I had left. My first thought was that because of the recent outbreaks of "Swine Flu", they must of had a patient in the treatment room, (because that's what they did yesterday) but no....it was because of me being classed as "Highly Contagious"..... It was such a terrifying and humiliating experience.
Now my precious children have had to go and stay with their father until I get the "All Clear".......Whenever that will be??????
Years ago here in Melbourne, Australia we used to have an "Infectious Diseases Hospital", but over the years with the many changes of State and Federal Governments with their wisdom, and many cost cutting in the community they
have closed it down!!!!! If it was still open, then that's where I would be at the moment, but instead I have to stay in my home and my poor darling and very precious children have to stay away from me and their own home. They are both extremely upset and concerned about me, as well as having to leave their home, so their father and I have decided not to tell them what my Doctor told me today, all we have explained to them is "I might be contagious with my ulcers and its best they aren't with me until I find out more from the Doctor". My heart was breaking when they left with their father, we were all in tears, and I can't even give them cuddles and kisses to try and comfort them and ease their anxiety........... Its very hard to see my children suffering so much.
And even though I worked out a way to open a bottle of wine to have a glass, and too also have a cigarette, I am now not allowed to have any alcohol while I'm on all this medication!!!! And I sure do wish I could have a glass at the moment!!
So instead I have to keep up my sense of humour, so if anyone has any funny stories or experiences to share, I would love to hear from you....Please....
I really need a good laugh right now.
xxxx

Bairnsdale Ulcers - The Good And The Bad !!

Yesterday I went back to my GP, and was given another very painful injection!!!! And I have too go back again this afternoon for another one (OUCH!!!!).
The results have come back on my blood tests, and she said it was good news, that I have a bacterial infection.....How is that good I asked???? Her reply was that she was testing me for Leukemia, and I don't have that!!!! (Yes that is very good news!!!!). The results haven't come back yet on my swabs, so she is still not sure what my ulcers are....(I'm still panicking).....
The third ulcer that popped up on Friday, is growing very very rapidly...Arrgghh..... While there hasn't been any change in the other two ulcers, none of them are responding to the heavy doses of antibiotics!!!!
My GP said that until my swab results come back, and we know exactly what the ulcers are, that its no use sending me to specialists yet, so hopefully when I see her this afternoon my swab results will have come back, and we'll know where to go from here!! I must admit the pain is excruciating, and I cannot have any painkillers, and there is good reasons for that, which I'll explain in another post one day, because that's a long story.
My precious children are very distraught about my condition, and seeing I'm not allowed to touch them at the moment, its very upsetting to not be able to comfort them with lots of reassuring cuddles, all I can do is just keep reassuring them through my words.
Where I live there are not enough Doctors, so I have too travel one hour to see my Doctor, and travel one hour to get back home. Its very annoying, but unfortunately there is a shortage of Doctors here on the Mornington Peninsula, as well as all over Australia at the moment.
Last night I again googled my condition (Should I have really done that??) And I found out that Koala's and Possums can have the same ulcers, and here where I live I am surrounded by Koala's and Possums.... That's when I remembered what happened to me over a week ago......Arrgghhhh!!!!!
I have a very friendly Possum on my front porch, who often comes too visit me when I'm sitting out there, and he is very curious......Do you know where I'm going with this????
I was just as curious about him as he was with me, and he looked sooooo cute, so I tried to pat him............. And he gave me a tiny little nip on my finger where one of my ulcers is. It didn't hurt, and was a minuscule bite, but it did break the skin, so now I'm wondering if I got the ulcers from him???? Even though the medical professionals haven't established that you can get these ulcers from Possums, they do know that Possums have the same ulcers..... Is this just a coincidence???? I'll have to ask my Doctor this afternoon.
I would like to give my love and thoughts too such wonderful ladies I have met in the blogging world, as well as a huge thank you to them too. They all share a very special place in my heart xxxx
Spencer - Bellamere Cottage
Kirrily - Sunny Side Up
June - Laughing With Angels
Silver - Reflections
Melissa - 2feetontheearth1inthestars
Carly - Love Reign Over Me
AnnaMarie - A Garden For Butterflies
Laura - Moments Of Pause
And a huge thank you too my friends, neighbours, and especially my family which some of them are also going through very difficult times at the moment, so I'm sending lots of love to them too xxxx
I also want to wish one of my precious niece's a very happy birthday today, and I love her dearlyxxxx

Gippsland Ulcers - The News Is Not Good

Yesterday's visit with my GP, didn't go very well and has now left me terrified!!!!
After I saw her on Friday, I had too go and have blood tests, as well as swabs from my ulcers. So when she saw my ulcers yesterday, she noticed that they are growing rapidly, and is very concerned, as she has never seen anything like this before.....Arrgghh..... She then gave me another injection of a very strong antibiotic, (OUCH) and I have to go back and see her again tomorrow for another injection, (OUCH AGAIN) and to hopefully find out the results from the swabs and blood tests.....Also I have too continue on the antibiotics that I got from the local hospital!!!! (You know what can happen with antibiotics, for females, well that's happened too now, if you know what I mean!!!!)
My GP said that the ulcers should have responded to the two powerful courses of antibiotics by now, (Which they haven't)...... So now she isn't quite sure what my ulcers are, and mentioned that if the swelling or redness moves up my hands or arms, I have too go to the emergency department at my local hospital straight away.....Arrrggghhh!!!!!!! (Now I am starting too panic).
If my ulcers are not showing any sign of improvement by tomorrow, and also if my results haven't come back, she is going to send me to a "Infectious Diseases" specialist.......In the mean time I am not to touch, or go near anyone....Arrgghh..
Today, when I've been changing the dressings on them, there getting worse, and the third one that started on Friday is growing rapidly too ....Can I start screaming from fear yet????
Yes I think I will..........FEAR.......PAIN........ONLY 2 HOURS OF SLEEP AGAIN LAST NIGHT.........AAARRRGGGHHH..........................

Gippsland Ulcers (Bairnsdale Ulcers) I Wish I Hadn't Googled !!!!

After only two hours sleep last night, I woke up with my fingers and hands in such severe pain and swelling......
So I decided to Google it....(Not a good idea)
According to the "Better Health Channel" website here in Victoria, "Gippsland Ulcer" or better known as "Bairnsdale Ulcer" is a skin disease caused by the bacterium "Mycobacterium Ulcerans (MU)". The toxins made by the bacteria destroy skin cells, small blood vessels (capillaries) and subcutaneous fat, which leads to ulceration and skin loss. These bacteria are found naturally in the environment, but the mode of infection to humans is unknown.
The Bairnsdale Ulcer is not thought to be contagious, and is a rare infection.
So I then compared my symptoms,
The progression of symptoms can include:

• A spot that looks like a mosquito bite forms on the skin..(Yes that's what mine did!)
• A spot that grows bigger over days or weeks...(Yes!!)
• The spot may form a crusty, non-healing scab...(Yes!!)
• The scab that disintegrates into an ulcer...(Yes!!)
• The ulcer continues to enlarge...(Yes!!)
• Unlike other ulcers, this ulcer is usually painless...(MINE CERTAINLY ARE!!)
• There is generally no fever or other signs of infection...(Yes!!)
• The limbs are more commonly affected...(Yes!!)

And then I went on to read the treatment options!!!!

Since the ulcer gets bigger with time, early diagnosis and prompt treatment can keep the amount of skin loss to a minimum. The first line of treatment is generally surgery to cut away the dead skin...Arrgghhhh..... A surrounding portion of tissue is also cut out to make sure the infection is completely removed. Depending on the extent of surgery, skin grafts may be needed close to the wound.

Sometimes the ulceration can return after surgery, which means another operation is required....Arrgghhhh.....

I won't write anymore as the prognosis is not good!!!! If you would like to know more.... Which I don't !!!!

The link is:

http://www.betterhealth.vic.gov.au/bhcv2/bhcarticles.nsf/pages/Bairnsdale_ulcer?OpenDocument

Has anyone else regretted googling about a medical condition???? Because I really do wish I hadn't !!!!

Their Not Mosquito Bites !!!!

Okay so today I went to my GP, and after being on antibiotics since Monday (prescribed to me by the emergency department at my local hospital) my fingers are now even worse!!!! She told me that unfortunately their not mosquito bites, but a lot more serious.... Apparently I have been bitten by a bug (although the medical profession don't know what sort of bug it is) I have been diagnosed with "Gippsland Ulcers"????? So today I've had one "VERY LARGE" and "PAINFUL" injection in my bottom (injections don't worry me....but that's another story) of a very powerful antibiotic, to hopefully help heal up my fingers, and tomorrow morning I have too go back and see my GP for another one!!!! She said that "Gippsland Ulcers" don't usually respond too antibiotics, and its more likely that next week I'll have to go and see a surgeon to have them cut out....... "OUCH"
There are two of them at the moment, and I noticed this morning that another one is coming up on my ring finger on my left hand!!!!!! If the surgeon has too cut them out, there wont be much of my two fingers left..... I am so terrified, and they are so "PAINFUL". I didn't realise how much I bump my hands, until I got these on my fingers, the pain can only be described as someone twisting my fingers with a knife, and when I bump them, it feels like someone is hitting them with a hammer at the same time..... Arrggggghhh....
I have not been allowed too put my hands in or near water for two weeks!!!!
Also I've been told I'm not too put my hands in or near water until they are gone!!! (Not even with gloves on)....Whenever that will be????
So now I have some questions:
1. How do I have a shower without getting my hands wet?
2. How do I get my two children ages 13 and 11,to do the dishes? (because the dirty dishes have been piling up for a week now)!!!!
3. Please excuse the next question, but:
4. How do I wash my hands after going to the toilet? (sorry)
5. How do I do wash my hair?
6. How do I get dressed?
7. How do I put my socks on?
8. How (if I'm lucky to be able to get dressed) do I get things in or out of my pockets?
9. How do I get anything out of my handbag?
10. How do I get money out of my purse?
11. How do I put LPG (gas) in my car?
12. How do I lock and unlock my house with the keys?
13. How do I use my mobile phone?
14. How do I cook?
15. How do I open anything up? (eg: milk containers, jars, tins, etc)
16. How do I change a toilet roll?
17. How do I light a cigarette, let alone trying to hold it so I can smoke it?
18. How do I open a bottle of wine to be able to have a glass to drown my sorrows.
19. How do I put on my makeup?
20. How do I do my housework?
21. How do I make the beds?
22. How do I do my hair?
Believe me the list of questions would be too long to put them all here.
If anyone knows the answer too my questions or can explain what "Gippsland Ulcers" really are, I would really appreciate It please.....please.....please.....
I have one on the middle finger on my right hand, and the other is on the index finger on my left hand. Which of course makes it impossible too do anything!! I didn't realise how much I use these fingers, until now.
Would you believe me if I said I am actually writing this with my thumbs?
Well I am.... and its not easy.... Just try and picture it....
And now my two children have gone to their fathers for the weekend.
If I wasn't laughing so much on how silly my situation is, I think I'd be crying.
Thank goodness I have great family, friends and neighbours.
I suppose all I can do at the moment is laugh, and my silly sense of humour really helps !!!!!!
I've gotta go, my thumbs are getting tired, and my bottom is sore...lol....
Kay xxxx